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She unfollowed me on FB!

I thought we were okay. To be honest, I already consider her as one of my best friends/sisters. We’re not actually from the same age level but she is only a few years older than me. Though every time she is around, I always have this strange feeling towards her. It’s actually like a feeling of incompatibility but I just let it go. I still try to befriend her.
She is actually very generous towards me. She even gave me clothes that do not fit her size anymore. I really thought she likes me. She would even like every single photo and status of mine in Facebook until one day… I found out she unfollowed me!
I was hurt. I really don’t know her reasons. We were okay. We are okay. But I really don’t know why. Is she hiding a secret hate towards me? Am I too much of a bother to her news feed for crying out loud? I mean, it does not make any sense. Why? Maybe, just maybe, my negative instincts toward her from the very start was right.
So okay. I moved on and just pretend I was not aware of what she did. Out of my hurt, I also unfollowed her. I just could not bear the thought of what she did. Was she just putting up a show all this time? I mean, am I a threat to her? I really don’t know. She even keeps tagging me photos of our nephew until now. Like, okay… “You just unfollowed me and you’re tagging me photos? What are you trying to show?”
I know it’s not really a big deal to others but for me it really matters–especially because she is my sister-in-law.
Right now, I just accept it. I will try to understand her. I will just continue being nice to her despite what she did. She is not only a sister-in-law but also a sister-in-Christ… so all the more that I have to understand her.

Have you experienced this one too? If not from a sister-in-law then maybe from a close friend? Feel free to tell me how you feel through the comments below. 🙂

MY BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT

When you apply for work especially online, there is always that application question required for you to answer so your application could be fully evaluated and considered. Well, in my experience, I have this application question that goes: What would you consider as your biggest achievement and why?

At first, I was reluctant to answer. I tried asking myself several times the same question. “Ano nga ba yung biggest achievement ko? Or do I even have one?” I tried answering “graduated from college with flying colors, landed a stable job, found a suitable partner (husband), etc.” but whenever I say “biggest” achievement, they do not seem to count. For me “biggest” is something more, something extreme, something worth it. And so I just remove any hesitations to answer what was really in my heart, ignoring what will be the employer’s reaction upon reading my answer.

This is what I wrote:

Biggest achievement for me is not measured by means of defining what you are or what you’ve become, what you have or own or even where you’ve been. For me, it goes beyond that. It’s simply living a life full of contentment. This may sound strange or too unspecific but this is what achievement means for me. It’s living a life of finding purpose in God. It’s just that you enjoy what you do and you don’t feel like comparing yourself with what others have achieved because you believe that every individual is unique, wonderfully made and has his/her own purpose. I think this is my biggest achievement–learning to live a life of full dependence in Him. It means simply living life to the fullest, being happily married and trusting Him for whatever wonderful purpose He has in store for me. My biggest achievement is what I am now–what God created me to be. And I believe that it would never be hard for me to love what I do because I do it for the Lord. 🙂

Narrow

My closest cousins had arrived and I am scared to tell them that I badly wanted to see them. It’s been forever that I was longing to see them home yet they just can’t. And when I left, they did. It’s frustrating to think that it’s done on purpose. Yes, I’m sad and disappointed. I’m sad that there are really people born with narrow minds. Narrower than what you could imagine. If they only knew how much I care for them but their hearts are just hard as stone. Why are they like that? It’s unimaginable. I just can’t stand their attitude anymore. Let God deal with them.

Been Born Again

What was the one experience that completely changed your life? What happened? How did it change your life?

Reading this question, I could not think about of any answer except this one: my life completely changed when I became a born-again Christian.

I would not say that I stopped being imperfect when I became a Christian. All I wanted to say is that my perspective in life has completely changed, taking a 180-degree turn. The old was gone, the new has come. When I asked Christ to come into my life, I have never felt this kind of overwhelming peace overtaking me. It was unnatural in an extraordinary way. I felt that  I was cleansed and purified differently. I felt so light and so joyful. The happiness was too much for me to handle that I suddenly burst into tears. I just can’t contain it.

My life became meaningful. I finally found my life’s purpose. And it is to serve Him joyfully.

Before, I was never satisfied with my life. I always tend to crave for more. I was too selfish to think about others. I was a dreamer in a very arrogant way. My life was anchored to the world. I lived my life the way the world would want me to live it. I want to be accepted by it but it never did after I have tried so hard to please it. It always end up with the same result–the world is never pleased with me.

I grew tired and weary trying and trying. Until Christ came into my life and everything has changed. I’ve come to realize that I have attached myself too much in this world. I have wasted my life trusting the world with its impermanence. But the Lord told me that it’s never too late. So without any doubt, I let go of my worldliness and cling to Him instead. I have never felt so secure in my life knowing that Christ is always holding my grip. Even when I’m losing it, He never gives up on me. At that point of time, I could say I was indeed loved by God and His promises remain true.

Truly, nothing/noone could ever changed our lives completely. Only Him and Him alone. We just have to surrender and trust Him and He will take care of the rest. 🙂

 

Patiently Waiting

 

I love writing songs. It is something that takes me beyond my own personality, my own world. Simply like my little outlet of expressing my thoughts and emotions.

This song I wrote is entitled “Waiting”. It is one of my favorite written songs. It tells about someone I was praying for to be with in my life. It depicts waiting with patience and full surrender to the Lord– that may the desires of my heart are still in accordance to His will.

These are my song’s lyrics:

Verse 1:

First time I saw Him I was not aware of the feelings

But as time went by, I felt something strange inside

Then I prayed to the God of Love, What is this? You know I’m afraid to love.

Just tell me so I’d be glad to know all Your plans

But for now…

Chorus:

Lord, help me guard my heart as I grow closer to him

And Lord, I’d be willing to wait no matter how long it takes

Oh Lord, help me guard these feelings, these precious feelings

Now I’m praying while I’m waiting, Oh Lord,

for Your perfect timing

Verse 2:

Lord, take away these feelings if they’re not from You

‘Cause I’d never get tired of waiting as long as You want me to

But then Lord, if he’s the one for me, I’ll rejoice

And still I’ll never cease to pray

I know Your plans are way better than mine and I trust You

So for now… (Repeat Chorus)

 

Now my years of waiting has finally paid off and the Lord has indeed provided me with someone I could love forever.

Are you waiting for that special someone too? Ask God to grant you the patience and strength to wait for that special person.